Tuesday, 16 April 2013

If you gaze long enough into an abyss, the abyss will gazes back into you. (Friedrich Nietzsche)

The two girls who lived next door had called the cops, knocked down the rickety door, and sprayed so much pepper spray in Nicky’s eyes he was now legally blind. He was arrested and brought to the same jail as Tommy.

Nicky had built an empire of his own. His girlfriend lured women to his skivvy apartment and terrible things happened that were sold on VHS tapes to equally skivvy guys for 19.95USD. Nicky’s actions were horrific. Twenty years to life worth of horrific.

He was plastered all over papers and news broadcasts nationwide. I never knew he had a dream. I certainly never knew he had the initiative to accomplish something worthy of headlines. Maybe it’s sentimental, but I never thought he could hurt people like that. I really never thought he could hurt me like that. He had been the first one, outside my family, to love me. What did that say? Had I hurt him so badly? Had I ruined his life in such an irrevocable way that this was what he had become?

He was a monster and I felt responsible.

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